Thanksgiving weekend

Worked open to close weds, went boarding with the twins on Thanksgiving, stopped at moms and their parents. Worked Friday morning with Amanda, went out to oc with Annie then to Dave and busters for Julies bday. Then hung out with Vega. He kissed me, a lot. It was nice. We are also going to go on a date. I'm looking forward to that. Maybe the weekend after next. Sat I hung out with Annie again and went out, I have a blast with her. Erika and Richard got engaged. Today I worked, made good money and had fun. Its been a good weekend!

I still miss you

I think I always will miss you Bear.

How quickly and quietly things change

Nov 9th?

I am laying in bed tonight, not feeling very good. Trav left about 11 and I fell asleep before he even said he was home. Eric text me about 230 and woke me up.... its now 5 and I still can't sleep. Nate finally filed for divorce... I counted and if I am correct January 26th I will be legally divorced. I have been thinking about him lots lately. I'm not sure why. I miss him a lot sometimes. I miss holding him, cause yes... I held him. I miss his morning kisses on my forehead. I miss his ninja rolls. Above all, I miss his friendship. He has his faults like everyone, but he really is a good guy!
With that being said, I wish I was dating someone. I wish someone cared enough to take the time to take me out. To spend time with me, and to treat me well. I wish Eric cared enough to TRUELY be my friend. I wish Brandon didn't drive me up the wall, then be so awesome. I with Justin didn't have a girlfriend lol.
Keenan text me today, a little out of the blue. Said he wants to hang out soon. I reminded him he owes me dinner. I think we will be doing a dinner date soon.
For as much as I want someone to be around, I am very terrified.

You cant handle it

I talked to angel today. About Eric. Which I probably shouldn't have done. It is what it is. He told her about how Thomas was flirting with me etc and was getting all huffy about it. If he isn't interested then why did he get so huffy to me and then to angel? Is he staking claim or does he actually give a crap.
I deleted his number... how much do you want to bet he won't text me for at least a week? I don't fucking get it. If I could say anything to him it would be this.
'Its amazing to me that you get huffy and puffy about someone liking me regardless of them being in a relationship or not. You made it very clear that you don't have time for me. To spend or to be friends. You keep saying I'm great etc. You have no idea. You think you know who I am or how I'll be. I may not be the clingy immature 24 year old but I also don't deal well with bullshit and games. I refuse to be one of your little games. You are 36 and have no desire to date? Clearly you have things wrong in your own head. I am not going to just speak with you when I text you or when its convenient for you. That isn't how my relationships work in my life. You want to even know me more than drinks and tips... prove it. If not then stop acting like you care.'

Maid of Honor

Last night my best friend (Liz) asked me to be her maid of honor.... while at her friend linettes house Haha... we ask each other all the important things at inappropriate times and places! Of course I said yes... I'm a little nervous! I think we decided Vegas for the pre-party! Hell yes!

I dont get it but whatever...

I accidentally sent Eric a text that was supposed to go to Trav saying if my downfall is being too kind etc then I'll take it... he responded with 'Stop trying to sell yourself to everyone. You're great' why thank you sir... too bad you clearly have no intentions of truly getting to know me... *eye roll*