Nate.. again

You're consuming my mind! You would be proud of me for losing weight and be pushing me to eat more than I have been because its not healthy. You would have come to my rescue and given me a big hug and kiss and said it was all going to be okay. We would be spending Xmas together. We would have our first tree together. We would be talking babies, or maybe even have one on the way. I always adored you. I miss you, and love you, and cry about you in the middle of the night. I'm so sorry for hurting you.