I used to write you letters....

Nathan,
I used to write you letters all the time, when we were still in love. When I couldn't figure out how else to tell you what I was feeling. Well what I'm feeling right now is mad. How are you friends with Mikala? How does Dani feel about that? How can you forgive HER, someone who STOLE money from you, tried to ruin our relationship from the get go, turn her back on you as soon as she saw you were doing well for yourself. Yet, you can't forgive me? I continue to see how much we would never work out. I'm constantly frustrated by you. By the things I see and hear. How can Dani hate me so much but be okay with Mikala? wtf is she some damn saint now?

It's interested to me that this still hurts me so baddly, I honestly think that it hurts me more than it hurts you. I think you just stopped caring. I think you were too interested in YOUR future you forgot about OURS. So no, I haven't forgiven myself fully, and I'm not sure I ever fully will. But knowing that people are okay with that and willing to stick by my side and love me through it. That's all I need. One day I will be free of this, free of you, free of us.

I have done so much to better myself, to let this go, to grow and move forward. I am honest with people now. I want a real, good, healthy relationship in my future. I wont let you hold me back anymore.

You held me back from so much and I never realized it, I don't think you ever did either. But i'm mad at you, and that's way better than hating myself and hurting all the time.


I don't cry about you anymore, I am not in love with you anymore. I want to be done and wash my hands of this.
Love you forever,
Your Bite Sized Pretty Girl....