My Vow

I'm making a vow to myself... I need to regain focus. No more going out and spending ANY money. No more going out to dinner with friends, no more drinking any alcohol (with the exception of halloween weekend because I know I will want to and I know I will be with 100% responsible people who wont pressure me into having more than AAAAA beer if that's what I choose, or even pressuring me into one), no more talking to males about dating or relationships, or kissing or anything until IIIIIIII am re-focused and clear in my own head on what my intents will be with that person and ONLY that person, Save every dime I make, sit at home and study for my test, or sit at a coffee shop or somewhere that I can focus on my future, save up the money to file for divorce because I don't think nate is going
to and he doesn't deserve to be getting payments from me and the extra money from the military since HE chose this, Get my OWN car ins on my OWN plan, get my phone into MY name only, stop falling back into letting people use me and walk all over me. No more venting to you all about the negative things in my life because I have so much going for me and so many positive things in my world. Everyone says how strong I am. I AM strong, and I want to be that, FOR ME! So I'm giving myself until Thanksgiving. I need to learn a little more self control with drinking, spending money, and men. I will re-evaluate myself and how I feel about things then. I know I can do this, I WANT this. I know I have the support.