You can't unchange people

If I could have 3 lives to live I would take it. I would choose this one, it's hard but I know i'm going places. I would choose my life with Nathan, stay married and have a blissfull fairytale life. I would also choose my personal "drug", that kind of passion we had(or I think we had) I miss so much. Those 2nd two, will NEVER be the same. Life is forever changed and I'm glad and still sad sometimes. Sometimes I want to unchange myself, but I know i'm such a better person lately. I can't unchange me, I can't unchange others. It's sad that you make mistakes you never think will change your life until, boom... there you are!